Been there....

I believe the first place we should turn with our problems is God's Word and prayer.  But it wasn't always that way for me.  When I first started going to Al-anon meetings, nothing made sense.  First I came, then I came to, then I came to believe God could restore me to sanity.  That was a process.  I had to get some recovery to understand recovery.  Only someone who has walked in a similar situation will understand that.  A restoration to sanity does come with time and effort.  I didn't get to the messed up place my life was in over a few days, it was about 32 years.  The road back will be long also.  Until you get to the place in a relationship with God that He is your first place to turn, there are folks in Al-anon that have been there....they understand.  Once you find your way, don't forget to share what you have learned with others to help them find their way.  In al-anon, you won't find someone to tell you what to do.  What you will find is compassion and understanding and stories of what worked or didn't work for them.  I would also encourage you to attend a local church of your choice.

There is hope,  with God all things are possible.

1 Thessalonians 5:11
Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.